Enlighted..I guess
Mood:  bright
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           It was a fine day today. Got some work done left some pending..Three of my team mates left by 5.30 and inspired by them, even I left at 6.00 pm I cant really recollect when was it last, that I had left by 6.00 ...

Its been quite some time.

Now what this is all about..

It is just about one fine day when I decided to start writing..Writing ? wrinting about what you may wonder..Even I am as clueless about it my friend..Who knows ; one fine day even my diary may become famous..like Anne Frank’s . Even though the difficulties I've had or am facing in life is near to nothing when compared to hers..I just need something..anything .. to keep myself occupied.

         Its been quite a loong time,since  I've done something other than wasting my time and life pondering about meaningless things around me..esp after coming to this city 'Pune'; the city many dream about coming and settling down..warm to most of its visitors with a modest climate most of the year..and surrounded with the enchanting beauty of hills,waterfalls and even the famous ajanta and ellora caves.

         But somehow ..this city has eluded all its true beauty from me so far.Or is it that i've failed , failed to find people who I like and who might come to like me..Somebody i could hang around with during the precious free weekends.

        Days are running as usual and I must say,I could still remember me and my dad and my classmate boarding the train from Trivandrum to Hyderabad,all set to join my new job..My first job :-)

I was selected to onboard the No:4 ranked Indian IT company..Satyam Computer Services..It was my first step towards freedom; atleast I thought so and I believe to a great extent it was true too..

I made friends, some special, some close..and till today, they stand by me and form an impervious layer of protection and support. I hope to extend this bond with them till time do us apart..

Now.. this is not what I started with..I guess..

I was thinking of my present and not of a glorious or not so glorious past..

What I am today.

Where I am today...

Today I got out from my office at around 6.00..yes thatz where I left off..Then..then what did I do..come back home and start scribbling ??

No that wasnt what happened..It was much later after I came back to an empty house that I started my so called 'Journal'..

        After getting out of the office ,I dint want to come back to this empty shackle that happens to be my Home now..Just dint feel like it..So I decided to take a hike..Not in d real sense, but I went for a drive, through the beautiful place calle Koregaon Park..Amidst all those giant and audacious biuldings. That place has always made me feel happy and chirpy..by its quite habitat and independent houses and some of them a relic from the past. The buildings of yester years have always managed to capture my interest and I watch them in awe, every time I pass by them. There are a number of modern day buildings with huge lawns and some very posh interiors.

          It did make me think today. Will I ever have a place I would love coming back to? Will I ever have a place of my own..designed as per my imagination. Every nook and corner making me feel like it just came out from my dream.

I wonder...

If ever such a day will come or how long I have to wait for it.

       I need a break.. But as one of my dear friends have pointed it once,I am just too confused.

        Too confused as to what direction to move on..One of the prime reasons even though I dint mention it before , for starting my journal is that I wanted to improve ..improve my language and my writing skills.

        I haven’t written anything like this in a loong loong time..Not since I left school. The last I would have written a story or a passage, one page long would have been around 9 yrs back..I've got to improve my writing skills if I were to ever dream of clearing GRE and getting a descent enough score at that.

        I was talking about the confusion in my life. Confused I am in choosing between a carrier @ IBM.. a name every one hold with awe and going to do MS in Biomedical Engineering.

         I am as clueless as I was a year ago as to what i should choose..a career as a Sofware Engineer, or to start from scratch after going back to college..I am just too scared and even more lazy for college now..but some where deep down in my guts,I want to  get into research..may be not a scientist ,just a student of science, trying for a breakthrough technology..

        Biomedical Engineering is a branch of science which unites biology with physics ..or Medicine with Engineering..I must say that is a wonderful and Power unison...the scope for innovation is seamless with both these varied sciences going hand in hand. Some how it has appealed to my idiosyncrasy & here I go dreaming of bringing in a breakthrough for blindness..To eliminate blindness from this world..atleast in the physical plane.

         The entire world we live in is engulfed with a blind frenzy..to reach for our materialistic goals. Very rarely do we find ourselves doing a selfless deed..or someone who is genuinely bothered about others plight. This blindness is here to stay..probably till the end of days.But atleast the medical condition of blindness is something we can dream of wiping out  from our time..

Lets see what turn my life takes on and where I land up in...